i currently have nothing to do so I started following lots of accounts with a nature/animal/ vegan/ ocean “theme” on Instagram, meaning people trying to save at least a bit of this planet and I received two offers for being an ambassador for two brands. And I decided to apply !
I really care about the planet and decided that this could be the start of me helping and having an impact and I am really happy that I got accepted by Sand Cloud because the ocean and the animals there always had a place in my heart and representing a brand which spends 10% of the money they receive per purchase for saving the marine and make shirts out of recycling bottles could be a great way for me to help.
What I want to say by that is that I feel like this could be the start of something and ALSO, check out Sand Cloud because they have really nice hoodies and boyfriend fit shirts [which you know I’m a sucker for that] AND you can help the ocean soooo.
Spread love <3
i’m going to make everything around me beautiful – that will be my life. – Elsie de Wolfe
“the free soul is rare, but you know it when you see it – basically because you feel good, very good, when you are near or with them.” – Charles Bukowski
“It’s okay to get tired sometimes. Don’t give up, everything will happen at the right time.” – All your wishes will come true
“I don’t really want to become normal, average, standard. I want merely to gain in strength, in the courage to live out my life more fully, enjoy more, experience more. I want to develop even more original and more unconventional traits.”
– Anais Nin
“The creative person is both more primitive and more cultivated, more destructive, a lot madder and a lot saner, than the average person.”
— Frank Barron
[I’ve been feeling very confused and sad the past couple days so this post is supposed to help me get better and I hope I can help some of y’all too]
There are different kinds of self care – physical [going for a walk, dancing, hiking, swimming, getting a hug, playing with a dog, cleaning and reorganizing your room, taking a bath], mental [reading a book, learning a new skill, DIY, color, turn your phone off] and emotional [meditating, practicing Yoga, lighting a candle, talking with a friend, going on a date, journaling, writing down a list of things you’re grateful for]
I N S P I R A T I O N
learning to let go and learning to relax means just freaking sticking those stickers on something. stop worrying if it’s the right place. burn that nice candle you’ve had for a year. it doesn’t need a special occasion. I’m gonna use those fancy soaps I’ve been collecting in a drawer even though they look so pretty and it means I’ll use them up. everything is temporary so just enjoy the littlest pleasures you can possibly have we all need to just let go and enjoy things while they last. the sticker’s gonna look fine on your water bottle I promise
holding hands while watching love, simon 🖤
i went to the movies today with a group of people. they weren’t friends, to be honest i just met them that day, so they were just random people. since i had a great time i am fine with that. but i’ve started wondering whether real friendship really exists because no no matter where i look and who i speak to i feel this slight bit of fake and hiding. i even feel it in me. and it makes me feel uncomfortable. so is there even a chance to find real friends ? or do you need to be “fake” yourself so you can find people who are equally fake ? or hor haven’t i met the right people yet ? maybe it’s just an age thing. the feeling of not belonging anywhere, trying to fit in. since i have dealt alot with depression and just overall sadness i really wish for “normal” people sometimes. who i can have fun with sometimes. who will still ask me how i am doing. who i am able to tell everything and the other way around.
start things. be the friend in your group who is the reason for fun memories. organize trips to different cities. or concerts. or festivals. show your loved ones good coffee shops and restaurants. go on late night adventures at that one lake. be full of love and brightness. introduce a monthly bake day. love your friends. they deserve nothing less. be full of positivity that everyone feels loved.
so the past couple days have been rough.
buuut yesterday i went to an arctic monkeys concert, a long time dream come true. y’all know already that this band has supported and lead me through so many years. and i just adore them more than anything else. and the fact that i could listen to them live is just blowing my mind. i am so happy i was not just given the chance but also went there with someone i love. because trust me, nothing beats someone hugging you from behind while hearing the lyrics “i’m too busy being yours too fall for somebody new” or kissing you during “constantly on the cusp of trying to kiss you.” i am so glad we shared this experience together. tbh. and this might seem weird but some screaming fangirls really ruined it for me at some points. i love freaking out on concerts but gurl, don’t scream into my ear for no reason especially when it’s the last song and really emotional. just no. but that was just a little side thing together with the heat and my hurting feet. all in one it was great. it took a lot of time to get back home but i’ve never appreciated my bed more in my entire life. i am in love, a dream came true, i want to go to a concert again and 🖤🖤🖤 // i get sick a lot currently and it’s so annoying because i had plans with a friend and i had to cancel them and i feel so bad ! but i hope since the exams are over i’ll get the chance and time to calm down and care for myself. really gotta stop stressing so much.
I love you so much and i don’t know what kind of force made you fall in love with me and i think i don’t tell you often enough how thankful i am. for your presence in my life. the impact it has. and how you choose to deal with my shit. i am a mess. i know and i decided to work on it. but thank you for being there before i made this decision. i am toxic at times, loud, often without respect, easy to hurt and even easier to make angry. but you’re still there and i feel so bad for making your life worse. that’s the only thing i really care about. how my weak mental health affects your life. how you have to deal with me when i am depressed, bored, sad and anxious. how annoying i can be at times. how i often blame you for things even thought it is just me being insecure and you’ re just triggering those insecurities. yea that might be your mistake too. but it’s mostly me because i overreact. I love you and i know my actions don’t show that enough but i love you more than i have ever loved anyone. I love you unconditionally and eternally. Thanks 🖤